“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11. 28-30 RSV)
Oh, how I carried the burden for so long — a personal, family burden — and it practically paralyzed me. My mind was in constant confusion, my heart broken, my soul in turmoil. Of course, I prayed. I prayed that God would intervene; that He would bring resolution, reconciliation and healing to this situation. The problem was, I prayed from the standpoint of knowing that I was right — and in this particular situation, I mostly was right — and, consequently, knowing what the proper resolution should be in this crisis.
This burden was too great for me to carry, though; I simply could not handle it on my own and, despite my prayers, I really was trying to handle it on my own. And then this morning I just gave it all over to God. In an authentic, conversational prayer I essentially said, “My great and gracious Father, I’m too weak to handle this. You know my situation and circumstances, and you know I have no control whatsoever over (so-and-so). So despite what they have done, and what they’ve failed to do, I just give them over to You.”
I prayed and asked God, “Please … will You be what I cannot? Will You step into (this person’s) life and be to them what I cannot be, at least at this time. You be their God and Father, and let me simply be Your steward.” And then the most unimaginable wave of peace washed over me, and it seemed as if the Lord smiled and said, “Now that is precisely what I’ve been waiting to hear! You can’t carry this burden; you never could. And you cannot be what only I can be… Be still, and know that I am God.”
And so I praise God this morning, this day! And I do hope and pray that you might find my testimony as a blessing and inspiration in your own life. Thank you for allowing me to share this with you!